Reading My First Novel

Some of you might be confused reading the title of this post but fear not! I will explain all.

I’ve been writing stories and creating worlds for as long as I can remember. It’s something I’ve always done and there are stories that I’ve written in the past that have unfortunately been lost to time.

All except for one…the very first full length novel I ever wrote. 

When I was 15/16 years old, I was obsessed with anime, thought I was pretty much above everybody because of my own interests and I went through a really bad breakup. All of these parts of me gave life to a novel that is (and I’m deadly serious about this) 16,421 words. Yes, apparently, I thought this word count was enough for a first novel. Oh dear…

Here’s the basis you need to know about the novel itself:

  • It’s half supernatural, half science fiction.
  • The main character of the book is basically me.
  • It is about as cringeworthy as you could expect, given my state of mind when I wrote it.
  • It’s called Elementia.

At the time of writing this, I thought this was going to be the novel that would shake the world. It was my magnum opus; the novel that would make me the bestselling author the world had ever seen. I was so confident in this I even sent a query letter to one of the big name publishers (who I won’t name here). Unsurprisingly, I was rejected. I never worked out why. 

I had tried many times over the years to try and get the story back as it got lost to time when computers changed. All I had was a short extract that I’d written in a notebook.


Until I found some old computer hard drives lurking in the study of my parents’ house. I decided to do a reaction video for my youtube channel to see what was on it. You can see in the video above that when I came across the complete document of Elementia, completely intact, I was so elated and happy. I finally had a copy of the novel so I could read it and cringe. Woohoo!

A few months ago, I decided to put the novel to (somewhat) good use and read it all for you as part of a series on my youtube channel. Part of me was very temped to self-publish the whole thing as it was but that may be an idea for another day.

If you want to see what my writing was like aged 15/16, check out the playlist below! And I promise with all my heart…my ACTUAL debut novel will never be as bad as this.

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