So, some of you may have noticed that I haven’t done a NaNoWriMo update for quite some time. For those who don’t know, I announced last month that I was going to be participating in National Novel Writing Month; a challenge where you have to write 50,000 words in 30 days. I’ve taken part in other years with varying degrees of success and this year I was absolutely determined to have a very successful year and another novel under my belt.
Unfortunately however…it wasn’t meant to be.
I was initially enjoying developing my horror story and reaching the majority of my targets each day.There were days where I faltered, but I always made it up to par most nights and revelled in getting into a brand new world.
However, this began to decline quickly. As I ran out of my notes to develop, so did my motivation and it led me to become incredibly stressed about finishing it. I also began to realise that despite the challenge of taking on a horror book was initially exciting, I hadn’t done enough research and was putting a lot of pressure on myself for it to be the perfect horror story, I’d spent most nights getting really anxious about what I would do next, where my characters would go and ultimately, my confidence began to wear incredibly thin.
So, after 15 days of trying my hardest with a story, I decided to call it a day. Initially, I was so upset to be calling it off so early in, but my heart wasn’t 100% into the whole horror idea and I’m still incredibly proud to have written as much as I did; my final word count was 21,676 words, which is still a massive achievement.
At the end of the day, I have a story which is a work in progress and I always remember that my debut novel started as a NaNo story I didn’t complete the first time…so there’s hope that this will see the light of day in the future.